Growing older and having survived cancer at 40, a long time ago, certainly focuses the mind on the future and I was very aware of this when I wrote the poem FUTURE TENSE. I've always loved writing and still remember the excitement of the first longer piece of work I did. It was very experimental and I was certain it wouldn't get published. It probably wouldn't have but one of the small magazines, who did such great work for new writers, took that piece and many others. But that wasn't all they did. With infinite kindness, they often pointed out where I could improve my writing.
My first book was a picture book, MATTHEW AND HIS MAGIC KITE, but after that, I started wanting to capture the humour and interest of where I lived, so PRIVATE-KEEP OUT came next followed by KNOCK AND WAIT and ONE WAY ONLY. They're not biographies because all I wanted to do was to catch the spirit of those times.
It would be good if everyone wrote an account of their lives so their times are not lost. So many valuable histories unwritten and unread.
When I was a girl, I loved the American writer, BETTY MACDONALD, with her very funny accounts of her family and her life in the 1940's. But NORMAN MAILER's, 'THE NAKED AND THE DEAD' spun me up to the stars when I stumbled across it in the subscription library I belonged to at fifteen. ERNEST HEMINGWAY's 'CHRISTMAS IN PARIS 1923', was so sublime and beautiful it was like a torch for writers and the Toronto Star Weekly must have published it with joy in their hearts. I wonder if there still is a Toronto Star Weekly?
I know it’s far too early to look for violets in our garden but I have a violet perfume which stands in for them just now. When I was a child, the woods where we played were full of violets and their scent. My mother liked flowers you could pick or grow but the violet was one of her favourites.
APRIL VIOLETS
My mother wore violets, A tiny twist of purple Caught up in a small brooch Of Whitby Jet pinned to her jumper.
The artist is a liar About painting only what he sees In front of him. Slick lies of seduction slipping from his lips, Falling from his tongue, Like leaves falling from a wintered tree. He tells so many lies It’s a wonder he doesn’t go blind.
That naked breast she offers On fingers thin and sharp as boning knives Is not offered for free. Painting the aureole so dark Only the juice of damsons could create Such a full, rich, bruising.
This dance hall dame, remote and lethal, Puts no value on any part of her body. It’s all for sale For a wad of the folding stuff.
The artist rhapsodised about her hair, Her eyes, her implacable face. But no-one on earth could mistake That sullen, knowing mouth For the mouth of a woman Who has given in to seduction.
I’ll say! That’s the mouth of a woman Keeping her trap shut And counting the money.
The artist is a liar, Telling so many lies It’s a wonder he doesn’t go blind. Certain that his painting is so beautiful People will fight to have it on their wall.
When, all the time, he knows he has painted Her ancient and watchful soul, All bandaged about with suffering.
In these times of great trouble and pain, we are thankful for the poppies amongst us.
POPPIES
Lately, poppies are in the fields, Beaming amongst the yellow corn, Smiling in the tall tangle Of wayward grasses and nubs of moody ragwort In the hedgerows. Careless, it seems, of the close threat Of the dark, the bitter nettle, Crowding their calm loveliness.
When rain comes, the nettle rejoices As those lovely heads are beaten into the dust. For a while, all seems lost, Until they rise again. Their scarlet pennants trembling In the powerful forces ranged against them. Trembling, yet standing firm.
Frail and beautiful, their petals A flick of red on the painted air. Beautiful and frail, as are all who stand guard Against the nettled strength waiting its chance To crush that which is fragile.
Yet the nettle has always misjudged the poppy, Seeing only its frailty, Blind to its endurance. And this world is full of poppies Shining their bright and lovely defiance Into every place where darkness seeks dominion, Their crimson glory forever seeding the earth with hope.
First day of the New Year and here’s wishing everyone peace and tranquillity.
UP TOWN ON A SATURDAY MORNING
This morning, When the old ladies Wearing their duvet And bad attitudes Banged their walking sticks On the hard pavements, Complaining about the cold,
The old men Fastened up their jackets Trying to work out How they had got so old Without anyone warning them. Every now and again Hustling into the Bookies To place a Bet That, ten-to-one, would win them Enough to buy back Their days of being young And meaning something In the world again.
Well, this was when That lad and his lass Began to sing, Coins rattling Into their empty money hat Lying on the cold ground In front of them.
Enough to buy them hot coffee, A slice of warm pizza And a bit of encouragement To keep going, anyway, Until they were well past Any danger of growing old With lined and cheery faces. Or not.
For ‘old’ was a word not in their lexicon And they had no intention Of it ever claiming their attention.